[Plays the instrumental of "Honestly" by Gabbie Hanna]
Gabbie Hanna: Hi guys! This is Box of Thoughts.
Irene Walton: Hi, welcome! Thanks for joining.
Gabbie Hanna: [Chuckles] This is a podcast I've wanted to start since probably like a year and a half and I just wanted to have my own studio in my house so that it was easy and convenient and consistent from the start. So I bought a house so I could have a podcast.
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: So here we are, um—
Irene Walton: Is that why everybody buys a house?
Gabbie Hanna: [Laughs]Of course! Um, I'm Gabbie Hanna. I am the host of this show. I am a writer, a singer, and now a podcaster. This is my best friend in the world, Irene Walton!
Irene Walton: Hello.
Gabbie Hanna: She is a baker and also a content creator and we are just best friends and we talk a lot to each other so we decided to—
Irene Walton: We figured, y'know our conversations are so good
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah
Irene Walton: Why don't we let other people in on 'em?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, it would be selfish not to. So I want to tell everybody what box of thoughts means.
Irene Walton: [Dramatically Inhales] I love this story.
Gabbie Hanna: Jade have you heard this?
(Jade responds from behind the camera)
Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool so—
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: Oh wait— you heard it— Yeah okay I remember. So box of thoughts is this thing I do where I visually
remove things from my body. So it's- it's start— its physical as well so if I have cramps, for example, I will imagine opening up my
body, removing my uterus— my contracting painful uterus —I'll put it on the table and then I will watch it mentally contract and then the pain feels removed from my body.
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: If I have a headache, I imagine popping out my eyeball or cracking my skull open so that the pressure from the headache can release. If my throat is itchy, unzip my throat scratch up in there. It genuinely helps. I don't know if that- probably a little crazy.
Irene Walton: Well no. I feel like that's definitely a thing that like- it- when you're in like kinesiology school, they're like "just imagine the pain leaving your body" and that's the—
Gabbie Hanna: Is that a thing?
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool.
Irene Walton: Like I feel like this is just a more thought-out version; more visual version of it.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever seen the guy?
Irene Walton: Woah— I was so excited—
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I'll get back to box of thoughts. We're very scattered here. There's a lot of boxes— the guy who
doesn't touch you?
Irene Walton: Yes! Yes!
Gabbie Hanna: You know exactly what I'm saying! Okay people there's this man out there who will make you—
Irene Walton: He's just like— he's like— oh he's
like— oh, like hovers over you
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, he's not touching you but he will make you orgasm. It's a type of massage with no touch.
Irene Walton: Yeah. You know when in 2008, when
everyone did the like heart hump dance move and they— your hands above your heart and you do that
Gabbie Hanna: Irene.
Irene Walton: [Chuckles] He does that for an hour.
Gabbie Hanna: And then girls are just on the table violently orgasming and I am so fascinated to know if it was
some type of weird...
Irene Walton: ...prank or something?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah!
Irene Walton: Yeah!
Gabbie Hanna: But can we find that guy, Jade? Make a note [Hysterically Laughs] I'll have him in this podcast.
Irene Walton: [Shocked then Smiles] I'm dead.
Gabbie Hanna: But... do you know what your
face looks like? [Both laugh hysterically] Is it embarrassing?
Irene Walton: I mean I think mine's pretty— I think my—
Gabbie Hanna: Don't pretend like you haven't done it in a mirror Rene
Irene Walton: I would never pretend to not (Unintelligble) I think it's— like it's not— it's not embarrassing to the point where it's like— I like contort my face a lot or something like it's definitely like a pretty generic [...]
Gabbie Hanna: Love that! Okay, so box of thoughts.
[Both Laugh]
Irene Walton: Okay, so you take out your uterus. When you— when you imagine taking out your uterus, is it like a very
like medical thing or can you just sort of like open it—
Gabbie Hanna: You just open it up. I don't have a five-blade [Laughs]
Irene Walton: No, but like do you imagine it as you'd like doing surgery or do you imagine as you just being like (Acts it out)
Gabbie Hanna: No, I just open it—
Irene Walton: Got it.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah it's like you— it's like—
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, so with my thoughts. If I have
anxious thoughts— So I visualize my anxious thoughts as these long wiggly oil slick-looking people. They're like wacky inflatable waving arm people but they're—
Irene Walton: Inflatable arm-flailing tube-man
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, those guys but they're black and
greasy and—
Irene Walton: They're olive oil from Popeye
Gabbie Hanna: Yes. They're all olive oil sticks. So they're in the crevices of my brain so I close my eyes and then I locate the top of one and then I pull it out and then I can feel it and imagine it coming out of the crevices of my brain.
Irene Walton: Uh-huh
Gabbie Hanna: And then when I get all of it out it's in my
finger and it's wiggling around and it's freaking out and—
Irene Walton: [Makes Chewbacca sound]
Gabbie Hanna: Unnecessary but I'm here for it and then I put it in a box—put all them in a box, close the box, go on a walk—
Irene Walton: Do you tape the box or just close it?
Gabbie Hanna: I've never thought about it but now you're stressing me out.
Irene Walton: I'm sorry
Gabbie Hanna: Because maybe that's why my box— why they escape. So I put them in a box, I go on a walk, I go to a top of a hill, I leave the box, and then I walk away and it's really mentally
cleansing. Eventually, they break out of the box probably 'cause I didn't tape it and then they run after me but uh yeah that's— that's my box of thoughts. So basically this show is us just unpacking our feelings.
Irene Walton: I love it I need another place to unpack my feelings.
Gabbie Hanna: Right here, baby! Our text messages aren't good enough?
[Both Laugh]
Irene Walton: Our face times, our calls, our hangouts... I need more.
Gabbie Hanna: We...
Irene Walton: I need it to—
Gabbie Hanna: ....spend a lot of time together.
Irene Walton: I know and I love it.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay so back to these movies because they're— do you have weird images of movies in your brain?
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: That you have tried to find?
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, give me one.
Irene Walton: Okay I'll give you my main one that I think about. I'm gonna be honest probably like six times a year.
Gabbie Hanna: Hell yeah!
Irene Walton: I'm like what was that fucking movie?
Gabbie Hanna: Six times a year.
Irene Walton: Of course. Once every two months— and it was this movie that my— So my dad was an actor and he would take us to like his friends like independent films screenings.
Gabbie Hanna: I think we need to tell everybody: Irene's that is in fact dead. It is a big part of her personality and I love that.
Irene Walton: [Laughs]
Gabbie Hanna: It is! In the best way possible.
Irene Walton: Yeah, I talk about a lot so like—
Gabbie Hanna: Well, you honor him a lot.
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: Which is great like you— I love when you post to your story and you like tag him essentially.
Irene Walton: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: You're like thanks! If you have a good beer or something. Thanks, Frank! But yeah so go ahead.
Irene Walton: But yeah, we would always go to his end of it— like his friends' movie screenings and stuff like that. He wasn't like big-time or anything so we would just go to like a lot of indie
stuff. And there was this one kind of big film festival that we went to and there was— it was the fun-it was the funniest, most real movie I've ever seen. It was called like... and I can never remember the name but it was like this Christmas movie and it was all filmed on like a handheld camera and— but it was like a real movie that they made it was scripted and more or less. And it was just so funny. And it was just like the-the misadventures of this family on Christmas. And like how stressful it can be and all this stuff. And like... the Son comes out as transgender and they're like, "this is fine but nobody brought the turkey!" and like— it's just like— it's so— I remember it being so funny! but I was—
Gabbie Hanna: Do you think it would hold up?
Irene Walton: So here's the thing... I know I was like eight or nine when I watched it and so I always think, would it still hold up? And would I— What would I think of it now watching it? Like would I think it was funny? Or what I think it was not as funny? Or like whatever.
Gabbie Hanna: Probably not as funny, right?
Irene Walton: But also maybe I would like get it more. Like I'm sure there were so many like jokes and stuff I was just like, I'm eight years old.
Gabbie Hanna: Right. Right, like Simpsons. Like when they walk into the store and it's like stoners pot...
(Unintelligible)
Gabbie Hanna: And then the guy walks out. And he's just like, "false advertisement man". I did not get that as a kid. Now I get it.
Irene Walton: Dude, and— ah, the Simpsons signs are my favorite thing. There was a whole thread on Twitter about
people being like look at all these signs. It was like thousands of tweets because of how good they are.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay I want to tell you about this movie.
Irene Walton: Fucking hook me up bitch.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I've been trying to find it and
please!
Irene Walton: And of course Dustin knew it in two seconds.
Gabbie Hanna: No— Oh! Listen maybe Dustin's the
lucky charm. Okay I'm gonna describe this movie and—
Irene Walton: Oh this is a new one. This is not Tremors?
Gabbie Hanna: No, no, no. This is not Tremors. So leave it in the comments of this YouTube video or leave it as a 5-star review on anywhere else. I need to know— somebody has to know these movies! 'Cause I know for sure they exist and I don't remember if these two things are the same movie or two separate movies but I remember it impacted me soo much as a child that I
like cried about it for five years later.
Irene Walton: I have something like that. We'll get back to it.
Gabbie Hanna: So I was watching this movie where this
family was super broke. Their Russell lose their house they can't afford to eat; they're like in trouble. And then they won the sweepstakes where they win a freezer and a shopping spree of food. So like they were able to go get enough food to fill the freezer. So there was this big moment where finally in the
movie you're like "Ah! They got a break! Fuck yeah!". And then the electricity goes out, the power goes out, and all of the
food spoiled. And like the mom was soo just heartbroken by it. And it affected me soo much like what is this movie. And I was like, what is this movie? And then— I don't know if this was the same
movie or a different one but this— it was another type of situation where the family didn't have food. Okay now I'm understanding my psyche; I was really worried about having food and money as a
kid and that's why it stuck with me for soo long because I-I related to the characters. Got it. Moving on.
Irene Walton: Here we go, back to the movie.
Gabbie Hanna: Maybe I made it up. Could've been a dream.
Irene Walton: You're like, this was my life! [Laughs]
Gabbie Hanna: This was actually my mom and I misplaced it 'cause it was so traumatic. [Both Laugh]
Gabbie Hanna: So there were bottles of milk; glassed milk. And it was like the last food that these people had like they could not afford more food. And then I think the dad like knocked it out of her hand or something. And then the milk shattered on the floor. And then she got down on her hands and knees and she's like sobbing trying to scoop up the milk. And it's cutting her hands and the blood is getting mixed in with the milk.
(Irene looking disturbed)
It was just like this milky, bloody, cry, tear-filled liquid. And it's— I thought about it probably six times a year.
Irene Walton: [Laughs] Six times a year. Holy shit. Fuck, I wonder what that movie was.
(Gabbie takes a sip of water)
Gabbie Hanna: Mmm. Somebody, please find it. Somebody
please, yeah.
Irene Walton: Wow that's the beauty of this kind of thing where I bet somebody's gonna be like, oh that's blah blah blah from 1989 or whatever.
Gabbie Hanna: Or maybe not. However, tremors did really pull through.
Irene Walton: Hey! (Smiles) I can't to live stream that.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, di- You've never seen it?
Irene Walton: No. [Chuckles]
so my mom and I used to watch America's
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, I remember being very scared.
Irene Walton: So my mom and I used to watch America's Next Top Model all the time. There's on Wednesday nights at 9:00 p.m. And we-we started watching in season two. And so we got really invested. And I was like seven or eight. And that's when everything in my life happened apparently. And season two there's this girl named April. She's a beautiful girl and I remember she made it so far and she worked so hard and she got cut. Like the- One of the last last girls to get cut. And it affected me soo much like I cried when she got cut.
Gabbie Hanna: Damn.
Irene Walton: I went to school the next day and we had like a project [so] I wrote about it and my mom was like, "why do you care soo much about this girl April getting cut from the show?" And I was like I don't know! I just do! And then I watched Auntie [on] Amazon-Hulu. And so I watched that season again and I was like why did I care soo much? About this girl?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah.
Irene Walton: It was weird. It was just one of those things that when you were a kid you like... (Acts it out)
Gabbie Hanna: Getting emotionally— You must have at the time related to her for some reason.
Irene Walton: I-probably.
Gabbie Hanna: Was she being bullied in the house or something?
Irene Walton: No, she was just like a very hard worker and she really wanted it and she just didn't get it.
Gabbie Hanna: That's-that's Irene; a hard worker, she wants it and doesn't get it. [Irene laughs hysterically]
Irene Walton: It was just foreshadowing my life.
Gabbie Hanna: I think you get what you want.
Irene Walton: I try, yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah you-you've been killing it. I've been proud of you. You've been very persistent and dedicated to your work and I've been really proud of you.
Irene Walton: Thanks for the inspiration.
Gabbie Hanna: [Sarcastically eye rolls in a playful way] Oh, me?
Irene Walton: [Giggles]
Gabbie Hanna: Speaking of work, dude. I want to talk about this.
Irene Walton: Let's get into it.
Gabbie Hanna: People keep congratulating me on—
Irene Walton: Your music video?
Gabbie Hanna: No, on having a boyfriend. And...
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: It's very confusing how-how many people—
Irene Walton: What do you mean they congratulate you?
Gabbie Hanna: Like literally will walk up to me and say "Hey, congratulations on your man!" And I'm like "Hey, I have a best-seller and I've never heard from you"
Irene Walton: I top the charts multiple times.
Gabbie Hanna: I was a billboard top emerging artist like- Congratulations on your man? I went to a party last night that was a screening for something I did which would have been a great thing to congratulate me on [Laughs]
Irene Walton: So like you're on the screen as people are watching it for the first time? And they come up to you after and they're like, hey—
Gabbie Hanna: —great job on the man! And like hey, that's— but it's a testament to— First of all, I'm happy people are so happy for me because—
Irene Walton: Yeah, big time. The comments on your pictures with him are like the cutest thing I've ever seen.
Gabbie Hanna: But I've also never been public in a relationship before. So it's— I think it's shocking to people because I've had soo many boyfriends that nobody's ever seen or
heard of. So I'm just always this chronically single person to the world. So for me to be like "Hey look at this person I'm so— y'know proud to show off this person" is a big deal but also I just put out a fucking music video that—
Irene Walton: —was incredible.
Gabbie Hanna: I mean not to toot my own horn but I love doing that all the time. Beep. Beep. That was a great music video. And like I got way more—
Irene Walton: No, it was beautiful! It was so thought out and it was so-it was so great. And like it's stunning. And soo many people saw it. And like that's the thing but people are like "Yeah that's cool but also let's talk about Payton"
Gabbie Hanna: But I love that people are happy for me. [Chuckles]
Irene Walton: Yeah, he's very sweet. He's great-he's a great guy.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, how about your-how about your guy?
Irene Walton: He's a sweet little man, I love him! Well- he's great I like him a lot.
[Both Laugh]
Gabbie Hanna: Listen, I don't know-I don't know the turn around on these episodes but you better drop the L-bomb real quick because we're like [Unintelligble]
Irene Walton: I'm like - Hey! Michael love you! I just wanted to tell you really quickly just in case you heard it anywhere else.
Gabbie Hanna: [Laughing] That's the funniest thing that has ever happened to us. Hooooly shit Irene. I mean are you gonna tell him now?
Irene Walton: I guess I have to!
[Gabbie laughs more]
Irene Walton: When is the release date of this pod? Of course! Of course, it's Tuesday.
Gabbie Hanna: Fuck. You got— wait what day is today?
Both: Friday.
Gabbie Hanna: You have Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Irene Walton: And you know what's funny? Okay here's the thing. Michael's such a sweetheart he-he will like watch all the stuff I make, listen to all the stuff I make, and is soo sweet. And every once in a while I'll like say a story he's like "Oh yeah, I heard it on the podcast" So he won't be like "Hey I'm listening to the podcast you did". Like he'll just do it and I won't know.
Gabbie Hanna: Right, right.
Irene Walton: So like there's a good chance he could
listen to this.
Gabbie Hanna: Well of course he's gonna listen to this. It's your podcast. Y'know? Like you're co-hosting this shit. He's gonna listen to it. It's episode 1 Irene.
Irene Walton: Of course!
Gabbie Hanna: He's gonna listen to the podcast and you just— I mean you can clarify - Are you in love with him? Or do you just love him? 'Cause, you can back track—
Irene Walton: Y'know let's get back to Payton.
Gabbie Hanna: Oka- [Breaks into Laughter]
Irene Walton: What's really getting to—
Gabbie Hanna: Or hey, let's stop talking about men because we're strong independent career-driven women.
Irene Walton: Yes bitch!
Gabbie Hanna: And we don't need to talk about men.
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Hey, do you think having a boyfriend is bad for—
Irene Walton: [Breaks into Laughter] but real quick - let's get back into men.
Gabbie Hanna: Do you think having a boyfriend is bad for getting male viewership?
Irene Walton: Dude, I think it might be.
Gabbie Hanna: I think it might be too - what do you think? So should we cut it all out?
(Dustin from the back of the room): Yeah
Irene Walton: Oh, I'm dead.
Gabbie Hanna: Take it all back.
Irene Walton: Hilarious.
Gabbie Hanna: Now, we're all good.
Irene Walton: I-I was signing up for some like thing the other day about like influencers and whatever. And uh— which my manager was then like "Don't do that" and I was like "Oh, okay. Of course"
Gabbie Hanna: Hi guys! This is Box of Thoughts.
Irene Walton: Hi, welcome! Thanks for joining.
Gabbie Hanna: [Chuckles] This is a podcast I've wanted to start since probably like a year and a half and I just wanted to have my own studio in my house so that it was easy and convenient and consistent from the start. So I bought a house so I could have a podcast.
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: So here we are, um—
Irene Walton: Is that why everybody buys a house?
Gabbie Hanna: [Laughs]Of course! Um, I'm Gabbie Hanna. I am the host of this show. I am a writer, a singer, and now a podcaster. This is my best friend in the world, Irene Walton!
Irene Walton: Hello.
Gabbie Hanna: She is a baker and also a content creator and we are just best friends and we talk a lot to each other so we decided to—
Irene Walton: We figured, y'know our conversations are so good
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah
Irene Walton: Why don't we let other people in on 'em?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, it would be selfish not to. So I want to tell everybody what box of thoughts means.
Irene Walton: [Dramatically Inhales] I love this story.
Gabbie Hanna: Jade have you heard this?
(Jade responds from behind the camera)
Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool so—
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: Oh wait— you heard it— Yeah okay I remember. So box of thoughts is this thing I do where I visually
remove things from my body. So it's- it's start— its physical as well so if I have cramps, for example, I will imagine opening up my
body, removing my uterus— my contracting painful uterus —I'll put it on the table and then I will watch it mentally contract and then the pain feels removed from my body.
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: If I have a headache, I imagine popping out my eyeball or cracking my skull open so that the pressure from the headache can release. If my throat is itchy, unzip my throat scratch up in there. It genuinely helps. I don't know if that- probably a little crazy.
Irene Walton: Well no. I feel like that's definitely a thing that like- it- when you're in like kinesiology school, they're like "just imagine the pain leaving your body" and that's the—
Gabbie Hanna: Is that a thing?
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay cool.
Irene Walton: Like I feel like this is just a more thought-out version; more visual version of it.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever seen the guy?
Irene Walton: Woah— I was so excited—
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I'll get back to box of thoughts. We're very scattered here. There's a lot of boxes— the guy who
doesn't touch you?
Irene Walton: Yes! Yes!
Gabbie Hanna: You know exactly what I'm saying! Okay people there's this man out there who will make you—
Irene Walton: He's just like— he's like— oh he's
like— oh, like hovers over you
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, he's not touching you but he will make you orgasm. It's a type of massage with no touch.
Irene Walton: Yeah. You know when in 2008, when
everyone did the like heart hump dance move and they— your hands above your heart and you do that
Gabbie Hanna: Irene.
Irene Walton: [Chuckles] He does that for an hour.
Gabbie Hanna: And then girls are just on the table violently orgasming and I am so fascinated to know if it was
some type of weird...
Irene Walton: ...prank or something?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah!
Irene Walton: Yeah!
Gabbie Hanna: But can we find that guy, Jade? Make a note [Hysterically Laughs] I'll have him in this podcast.
Irene Walton: [Shocked then Smiles] I'm dead.
Gabbie Hanna: But... do you know what your
face looks like? [Both laugh hysterically] Is it embarrassing?
Irene Walton: I mean I think mine's pretty— I think my—
Gabbie Hanna: Don't pretend like you haven't done it in a mirror Rene
Irene Walton: I would never pretend to not (Unintelligble) I think it's— like it's not— it's not embarrassing to the point where it's like— I like contort my face a lot or something like it's definitely like a pretty generic [...]
Gabbie Hanna: Love that! Okay, so box of thoughts.
[Both Laugh]
Irene Walton: Okay, so you take out your uterus. When you— when you imagine taking out your uterus, is it like a very
like medical thing or can you just sort of like open it—
Gabbie Hanna: You just open it up. I don't have a five-blade [Laughs]
Irene Walton: No, but like do you imagine it as you'd like doing surgery or do you imagine as you just being like (Acts it out)
Gabbie Hanna: No, I just open it—
Irene Walton: Got it.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah it's like you— it's like—
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, so with my thoughts. If I have
anxious thoughts— So I visualize my anxious thoughts as these long wiggly oil slick-looking people. They're like wacky inflatable waving arm people but they're—
Irene Walton: Inflatable arm-flailing tube-man
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, those guys but they're black and
greasy and—
Irene Walton: They're olive oil from Popeye
Gabbie Hanna: Yes. They're all olive oil sticks. So they're in the crevices of my brain so I close my eyes and then I locate the top of one and then I pull it out and then I can feel it and imagine it coming out of the crevices of my brain.
Irene Walton: Uh-huh
Gabbie Hanna: And then when I get all of it out it's in my
finger and it's wiggling around and it's freaking out and—
Irene Walton: [Makes Chewbacca sound]
Gabbie Hanna: Unnecessary but I'm here for it and then I put it in a box—put all them in a box, close the box, go on a walk—
Irene Walton: Do you tape the box or just close it?
Gabbie Hanna: I've never thought about it but now you're stressing me out.
Irene Walton: I'm sorry
Gabbie Hanna: Because maybe that's why my box— why they escape. So I put them in a box, I go on a walk, I go to a top of a hill, I leave the box, and then I walk away and it's really mentally
cleansing. Eventually, they break out of the box probably 'cause I didn't tape it and then they run after me but uh yeah that's— that's my box of thoughts. So basically this show is us just unpacking our feelings.
Irene Walton: I love it I need another place to unpack my feelings.
Gabbie Hanna: Right here, baby! Our text messages aren't good enough?
[Both Laugh]
Irene Walton: Our face times, our calls, our hangouts... I need more.
Gabbie Hanna: We...
Irene Walton: I need it to—
Gabbie Hanna: ....spend a lot of time together.
Irene Walton: I know and I love it.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay so back to these movies because they're— do you have weird images of movies in your brain?
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: That you have tried to find?
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, give me one.
Irene Walton: Okay I'll give you my main one that I think about. I'm gonna be honest probably like six times a year.
Gabbie Hanna: Hell yeah!
Irene Walton: I'm like what was that fucking movie?
Gabbie Hanna: Six times a year.
Irene Walton: Of course. Once every two months— and it was this movie that my— So my dad was an actor and he would take us to like his friends like independent films screenings.
Gabbie Hanna: I think we need to tell everybody: Irene's that is in fact dead. It is a big part of her personality and I love that.
Irene Walton: [Laughs]
Gabbie Hanna: It is! In the best way possible.
Irene Walton: Yeah, I talk about a lot so like—
Gabbie Hanna: Well, you honor him a lot.
Irene Walton: Yes.
Gabbie Hanna: Which is great like you— I love when you post to your story and you like tag him essentially.
Irene Walton: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: You're like thanks! If you have a good beer or something. Thanks, Frank! But yeah so go ahead.
Irene Walton: But yeah, we would always go to his end of it— like his friends' movie screenings and stuff like that. He wasn't like big-time or anything so we would just go to like a lot of indie
stuff. And there was this one kind of big film festival that we went to and there was— it was the fun-it was the funniest, most real movie I've ever seen. It was called like... and I can never remember the name but it was like this Christmas movie and it was all filmed on like a handheld camera and— but it was like a real movie that they made it was scripted and more or less. And it was just so funny. And it was just like the-the misadventures of this family on Christmas. And like how stressful it can be and all this stuff. And like... the Son comes out as transgender and they're like, "this is fine but nobody brought the turkey!" and like— it's just like— it's so— I remember it being so funny! but I was—
Gabbie Hanna: Do you think it would hold up?
Irene Walton: So here's the thing... I know I was like eight or nine when I watched it and so I always think, would it still hold up? And would I— What would I think of it now watching it? Like would I think it was funny? Or what I think it was not as funny? Or like whatever.
Gabbie Hanna: Probably not as funny, right?
Irene Walton: But also maybe I would like get it more. Like I'm sure there were so many like jokes and stuff I was just like, I'm eight years old.
Gabbie Hanna: Right. Right, like Simpsons. Like when they walk into the store and it's like stoners pot...
(Unintelligible)
Gabbie Hanna: And then the guy walks out. And he's just like, "false advertisement man". I did not get that as a kid. Now I get it.
Irene Walton: Dude, and— ah, the Simpsons signs are my favorite thing. There was a whole thread on Twitter about
people being like look at all these signs. It was like thousands of tweets because of how good they are.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay I want to tell you about this movie.
Irene Walton: Fucking hook me up bitch.
Gabbie Hanna: Okay, I've been trying to find it and
please!
Irene Walton: And of course Dustin knew it in two seconds.
Gabbie Hanna: No— Oh! Listen maybe Dustin's the
lucky charm. Okay I'm gonna describe this movie and—
Irene Walton: Oh this is a new one. This is not Tremors?
Gabbie Hanna: No, no, no. This is not Tremors. So leave it in the comments of this YouTube video or leave it as a 5-star review on anywhere else. I need to know— somebody has to know these movies! 'Cause I know for sure they exist and I don't remember if these two things are the same movie or two separate movies but I remember it impacted me soo much as a child that I
like cried about it for five years later.
Irene Walton: I have something like that. We'll get back to it.
Gabbie Hanna: So I was watching this movie where this
family was super broke. Their Russell lose their house they can't afford to eat; they're like in trouble. And then they won the sweepstakes where they win a freezer and a shopping spree of food. So like they were able to go get enough food to fill the freezer. So there was this big moment where finally in the
movie you're like "Ah! They got a break! Fuck yeah!". And then the electricity goes out, the power goes out, and all of the
food spoiled. And like the mom was soo just heartbroken by it. And it affected me soo much like what is this movie. And I was like, what is this movie? And then— I don't know if this was the same
movie or a different one but this— it was another type of situation where the family didn't have food. Okay now I'm understanding my psyche; I was really worried about having food and money as a
kid and that's why it stuck with me for soo long because I-I related to the characters. Got it. Moving on.
Irene Walton: Here we go, back to the movie.
Gabbie Hanna: Maybe I made it up. Could've been a dream.
Irene Walton: You're like, this was my life! [Laughs]
Gabbie Hanna: This was actually my mom and I misplaced it 'cause it was so traumatic. [Both Laugh]
Gabbie Hanna: So there were bottles of milk; glassed milk. And it was like the last food that these people had like they could not afford more food. And then I think the dad like knocked it out of her hand or something. And then the milk shattered on the floor. And then she got down on her hands and knees and she's like sobbing trying to scoop up the milk. And it's cutting her hands and the blood is getting mixed in with the milk.
(Irene looking disturbed)
It was just like this milky, bloody, cry, tear-filled liquid. And it's— I thought about it probably six times a year.
Irene Walton: [Laughs] Six times a year. Holy shit. Fuck, I wonder what that movie was.
(Gabbie takes a sip of water)
Gabbie Hanna: Mmm. Somebody, please find it. Somebody
please, yeah.
Irene Walton: Wow that's the beauty of this kind of thing where I bet somebody's gonna be like, oh that's blah blah blah from 1989 or whatever.
Gabbie Hanna: Or maybe not. However, tremors did really pull through.
Irene Walton: Hey! (Smiles) I can't to live stream that.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, di- You've never seen it?
Irene Walton: No. [Chuckles]
so my mom and I used to watch America's
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, I remember being very scared.
Irene Walton: So my mom and I used to watch America's Next Top Model all the time. There's on Wednesday nights at 9:00 p.m. And we-we started watching in season two. And so we got really invested. And I was like seven or eight. And that's when everything in my life happened apparently. And season two there's this girl named April. She's a beautiful girl and I remember she made it so far and she worked so hard and she got cut. Like the- One of the last last girls to get cut. And it affected me soo much like I cried when she got cut.
Gabbie Hanna: Damn.
Irene Walton: I went to school the next day and we had like a project [so] I wrote about it and my mom was like, "why do you care soo much about this girl April getting cut from the show?" And I was like I don't know! I just do! And then I watched Auntie [on] Amazon-Hulu. And so I watched that season again and I was like why did I care soo much? About this girl?
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah.
Irene Walton: It was weird. It was just one of those things that when you were a kid you like... (Acts it out)
Gabbie Hanna: Getting emotionally— You must have at the time related to her for some reason.
Irene Walton: I-probably.
Gabbie Hanna: Was she being bullied in the house or something?
Irene Walton: No, she was just like a very hard worker and she really wanted it and she just didn't get it.
Gabbie Hanna: That's-that's Irene; a hard worker, she wants it and doesn't get it. [Irene laughs hysterically]
Irene Walton: It was just foreshadowing my life.
Gabbie Hanna: I think you get what you want.
Irene Walton: I try, yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah you-you've been killing it. I've been proud of you. You've been very persistent and dedicated to your work and I've been really proud of you.
Irene Walton: Thanks for the inspiration.
Gabbie Hanna: [Sarcastically eye rolls in a playful way] Oh, me?
Irene Walton: [Giggles]
Gabbie Hanna: Speaking of work, dude. I want to talk about this.
Irene Walton: Let's get into it.
Gabbie Hanna: People keep congratulating me on—
Irene Walton: Your music video?
Gabbie Hanna: No, on having a boyfriend. And...
Irene Walton: Of course.
Gabbie Hanna: It's very confusing how-how many people—
Irene Walton: What do you mean they congratulate you?
Gabbie Hanna: Like literally will walk up to me and say "Hey, congratulations on your man!" And I'm like "Hey, I have a best-seller and I've never heard from you"
Irene Walton: I top the charts multiple times.
Gabbie Hanna: I was a billboard top emerging artist like- Congratulations on your man? I went to a party last night that was a screening for something I did which would have been a great thing to congratulate me on [Laughs]
Irene Walton: So like you're on the screen as people are watching it for the first time? And they come up to you after and they're like, hey—
Gabbie Hanna: —great job on the man! And like hey, that's— but it's a testament to— First of all, I'm happy people are so happy for me because—
Irene Walton: Yeah, big time. The comments on your pictures with him are like the cutest thing I've ever seen.
Gabbie Hanna: But I've also never been public in a relationship before. So it's— I think it's shocking to people because I've had soo many boyfriends that nobody's ever seen or
heard of. So I'm just always this chronically single person to the world. So for me to be like "Hey look at this person I'm so— y'know proud to show off this person" is a big deal but also I just put out a fucking music video that—
Irene Walton: —was incredible.
Gabbie Hanna: I mean not to toot my own horn but I love doing that all the time. Beep. Beep. That was a great music video. And like I got way more—
Irene Walton: No, it was beautiful! It was so thought out and it was so-it was so great. And like it's stunning. And soo many people saw it. And like that's the thing but people are like "Yeah that's cool but also let's talk about Payton"
Gabbie Hanna: But I love that people are happy for me. [Chuckles]
Irene Walton: Yeah, he's very sweet. He's great-he's a great guy.
Gabbie Hanna: Yeah, how about your-how about your guy?
Irene Walton: He's a sweet little man, I love him! Well- he's great I like him a lot.
[Both Laugh]
Gabbie Hanna: Listen, I don't know-I don't know the turn around on these episodes but you better drop the L-bomb real quick because we're like [Unintelligble]
Irene Walton: I'm like - Hey! Michael love you! I just wanted to tell you really quickly just in case you heard it anywhere else.
Gabbie Hanna: [Laughing] That's the funniest thing that has ever happened to us. Hooooly shit Irene. I mean are you gonna tell him now?
Irene Walton: I guess I have to!
[Gabbie laughs more]
Irene Walton: When is the release date of this pod? Of course! Of course, it's Tuesday.
Gabbie Hanna: Fuck. You got— wait what day is today?
Both: Friday.
Gabbie Hanna: You have Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Irene Walton: And you know what's funny? Okay here's the thing. Michael's such a sweetheart he-he will like watch all the stuff I make, listen to all the stuff I make, and is soo sweet. And every once in a while I'll like say a story he's like "Oh yeah, I heard it on the podcast" So he won't be like "Hey I'm listening to the podcast you did". Like he'll just do it and I won't know.
Gabbie Hanna: Right, right.
Irene Walton: So like there's a good chance he could
listen to this.
Gabbie Hanna: Well of course he's gonna listen to this. It's your podcast. Y'know? Like you're co-hosting this shit. He's gonna listen to it. It's episode 1 Irene.
Irene Walton: Of course!
Gabbie Hanna: He's gonna listen to the podcast and you just— I mean you can clarify - Are you in love with him? Or do you just love him? 'Cause, you can back track—
Irene Walton: Y'know let's get back to Payton.
Gabbie Hanna: Oka- [Breaks into Laughter]
Irene Walton: What's really getting to—
Gabbie Hanna: Or hey, let's stop talking about men because we're strong independent career-driven women.
Irene Walton: Yes bitch!
Gabbie Hanna: And we don't need to talk about men.
Irene Walton: Yeah.
Gabbie Hanna: Hey, do you think having a boyfriend is bad for—
Irene Walton: [Breaks into Laughter] but real quick - let's get back into men.
Gabbie Hanna: Do you think having a boyfriend is bad for getting male viewership?
Irene Walton: Dude, I think it might be.
Gabbie Hanna: I think it might be too - what do you think? So should we cut it all out?
(Dustin from the back of the room): Yeah
Irene Walton: Oh, I'm dead.
Gabbie Hanna: Take it all back.
Irene Walton: Hilarious.
Gabbie Hanna: Now, we're all good.
Irene Walton: I-I was signing up for some like thing the other day about like influencers and whatever. And uh— which my manager was then like "Don't do that" and I was like "Oh, okay. Of course"
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