Ashes Phix

[Verse 1]
I've lost most my family and it's not to death
My dad hopes I end up broken alone
Decisions I made have me full of regret
Can't remember the last time he called on the phone
Thought I found someone who made me forget
And I fucked it all up by the time she got home
I needed some time to sit back and reflect
'Fore it too late for me and she's already gone

[Verse 2]
If I screamed out aloud lookin' for help
Who would really be there that would listen
I've been in places so dark I got used to the view
And my happiness really went missin'
Until you at fault, you who they blame
But deep down you know that it isn't
I'm not enthused to have to go and show you this place
But this is my life in a prison

[Verse 3]
All the voices in my head I can't get rid of
Say that they are here to come and destroy me
How do I make any change in my life when they are the ones livin' it for me
Grab the gun out the case and aimed it at my face
And I stand there while drinkin' a 40
For these motherfuckers who look down on me
Who think it's stupid and corny
I neglected the fact and that I could express the way this depression changed me
I reflected inside of my head for so long and the fact that I'm still here is amazing
Instead of the torment, I pressed the recorder and came out with something insane [?]
And my mission is to end a connect with the people who claim they hate me