Irrational Pull 156/Silence

Searching for some substance
I guess I've looked for a while
I see my suffering has grown to spread its wings and my absence is just an instance of the voidance lived with
And I see vipers slither out of abhorrence in my visions
And I keep pressing, I get pushed away
I'm only lessening myself with every single delay
I keep on stressing while my future decays
I pick the constant misery on replay

To think I could have fucking listened
Lucky to be fucking present
All my nights, a distant vision
I won't (Carry on, carry on)
Casting cold incisions on my loving ones' opinions
Captivating me, this hindrance doesn't (Care at all, care at all)

Let me go, let me go
Let me go, let me go
Let me go, let me go
Just let me be alone
As they roam let the crows pick my bones 'cause I know that's all that I'm fucking worth
It never leaves
Let me go, let me go
Let me go, let me go
Let me go, let me go
Descending on my own
I don't know when my woes took control but I won't give into the fucking words that never leave
But I just want to escape