Gone Now Crops (Ft. Adeptis Delta)

I thought of you again, empty bottles by my bed
There not half empty, there not half full
They keep me numb, so fully cool
That way I won’t send, a message I’d regret
Freeze my thumbprint, pay out respects
Until I’m in debt, I don’t deserve love yet
I’m takin' strided steps, no more backward progress
Don’t care how awkward it gets, I’m gonna figure out this mess
Yeah, it took me a while to forget
Your laugh, your hair, your dress
But I moved my nest, and with it came what’s underneath my chеst
Involuntary beating, on the surface I am brеathing
But inside I’m bleeding, and I hide the tears I’m feeling
If I express emotional fear, maybe I’d start healing
It’s much easier concealing, I guess now I’m revealing
The truth of my pain, it lies within the rain
About to suffocate, from a lack of honest faith
I’m accountable, for the mistakes I pull
Devouring self cannibal, retiring from Hannibal
Finding a hand to hold, my life now manageable

I’m gone when you’re there
You’re gone when I’m here
We never found common ground
Why do we stick around?