Trust Me Paperboys

I sit alone with my thoughts and try to capture the essence and knowledge itself
I look for something solid so a bottle won't help
And I dont wanna bother nobody else so I'm alone again
Feeling like a part of me is gone with my friends
So I pretend that I'm dead but it makes no difference
The only way to clear my head is in these weights I'm lifting
I feel my fake shifting out of my head
The way I used to be so proud now its clear, I dont understand
Things ain't what they used to be
I notice pain really ain't new to me
I'm living life n' bang so foolishly!
So lord lead me, give me the strength
I know that you allready given me sense and I appreciate it
It's all so wet now when recreated, but whats the science?
I know it ain't much by hey I'm tryin
Feelin so fucked and I ain't lying, there's darkness in me
And everyday it's getting harder to breath..

(See one day)
See we survive but it never ends
(We're gonna find our way)
And catch a vibe feelin' heaven sent
(And then a place to stay)
See I've been livin just dealin' with what I'm given
Thinkin this is really somethin when it isn't
(If I may)
Just fly 'em by
(And let me find my way)
And it's why they might
(And there ain't nothin I can say)
My window, why we live this way?