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(Instrumental)

The silence
Fills
My head


[Connor]

After 16 years I still don't feel like I have company
And every time I get close to achieving ridding of my loneliness, I push everyone away
It's overwhelming having people around you when you're so used to being alone, it's so hard to feel like you have no space
But at the same time its so overwhelming, the feeling of loneliness
When you don't try to reach out and whеn you don't have people suffocating you at еvery moment
I feel stuck at every moment, I wish with everything inside of me that I could find a balance
A balance where I, Connor Holt VanDyke, no longer feel alone
But I always feel lost in a sea of eyes
Hoping at every moment for a chance at hiding
And I wish and I pray every single day that I could murder this soul inside of me
In search for a new one, just to have a chance at a new day
A new day where I don't feel so alone
A new day where everyone loves me
A new day where I feel comfortable to speak
(a new day) where I can breathe
Just for once
A new day