Suicidal Thoughts Josh A & iamjakehill

[Chorus: Jake Hill]
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (Dying)

[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncin'
I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin'
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain, yuh
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
Gotta work 'til I'm dead
So that they get the best
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause kids looking up
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's okay
So fuck suicide I'm here to stay

[Bridge: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I don't know what's right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light, nah, man
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now