I CANNOT MOVE ON 919slum

[Intro]
919
My selfish-

[Verse]
My selfish actions been the catalyst, solitary corner sitting
Rotten, far forgotten, heart is slow, I'm unresponsive
Life is passin', all I see is flashing lights where I reside
Golden sky, grab my lanthorn, I cannot even ask why
Talk to God sometimes, I know my problems are all on my own
What I mean is that I caused them, probably rooted in my home
8 years old, lies were told, room was filled with mice and mold
Bipolar child made my foundation frozen cold
My friends don’t really fuck with me, I piss 'em off, I'm just a pawn
When I kill myself it’ll only take two months and they’ll move on
I ain’t sad about it, it’s a fact of life, my aura cursed
Leave me ‘lone or don’t, it don’t matter, I always end up hurt
I’m tired of sobriety, I'm taking Ritalin and percs
I remember gettin' sober, present day I'm gettin' worse
Pills have got my paranoia perched, sometimes I pray to die
Victimless crime when I blow away from suicide

[Hook]
Light cannot reach me, I'm so far from the sun, star
Stars are blowin' up, I watch the sky, I grab my gun
I pray, I pray, I pray until the kingdom come
What do I deserve? It'll be Hell, I cannot move on