Young Boy King Iso

[Verse 1]
Lately feelin' nothing but just manic
Puff another blunt so I can jump up off the planet
Spacing out from worship while I'm purging up this canvas
I hope and pray to God one day my son can understand it
Damn it, I just wonder what's the fucking chances
For me to rid me of this pain enough I tuck and cram it
And he's the reason I do not give up, I'm up and standing
And never let him see my pain and cover up the bandage
What if I said I planned you but your mother wasn't planning
Fresh up out the jail and I had nothing but a sandwich
Psych meds had me fat and ugly, something frantic
I just wanted someone who could love me but she panicked
Said I had her back but she ain't want me but advances
Said we could make it could work but she ain't want me
Was I damaged?
I was sick and held it down enough it was bananas
Made me feel disgusted out in public underhanded
She said a ton of stuff that got me took me from ya fam kid
So when I say you're mine, just say what's up then up and vanished
They prolly think that I don't do enough, well fuck the antics
And if they try to turn you on me son, just understand this
I come from having nothing, now I'm something, look at Pam's kids
And when I'm on the road and now you wonder where your dad is
I sacrifice so you do one for nothing on the damn list
And when I die you'll have a little something for my grandkids