F64 Ed Sheeran

[Verse 1]
Yo, Jam, this is a letter to you
It's been a while, but it's been hard for me to get in the booth
Since we last spoke, I've become a father of two
Tryna live life with a smile, but that's been harder to do
'Cause all I wanna do is talk about you
But these tears won't let me talk about you
We shoulda known that we'd be lost without you
Therapy sessions, diggin' deep in depression
I got a life full of blessings, but this just breaks my fuckin' heart
At your birthday, couldn't even crack a smile
I just cried and left the party, Neesh, I'll see you in a while
Headed to the mural, got some jerk wings and plantain
'Cause that is the way that me and you would celebrate it
I never knew you touched the stuff 'cause you'd always bad me up
If you saw me more than drunk, you always hated what it does
Before Lyra, I just stopped, I haven't even wanted one
I can't get over this, it's fucked, man, I wished I'd known
And yo, we cried for nine nights at your family home
Laid you to rest in the ground, but without a stone
You know, it hits me most at moments now when I'm alone
Every mornin', I remember that you're really gone

[Chorus]
'Cause it's been a long night and I cry 'cause I miss my brother
You know for life, got your sis and mother
And day and night, it still hits that you're gone
And right now I'm spillin' tears in my cup
You left the world before you met Jupiter
Wish you'd have known you would be godfather
You would've loved lovin' my little girls
If not for them, I'd be done with the world