Audiobiography Illmaculate & OnlyOne

[Verse 1: Only One]
Reminisce, all I knew was mom's love
Never knew what the adult's was, cause they was on drugs
Hamburger Helper with my grandmother Ellen
In my grandma's kitchen before she died of an aneurysm
We used to eat canned food off the floor
All three of us slept on one mattress on the floor
Growing up we looked at cars, we didn't have one
I remember asking my mom where my dad was
She said he'd beat her, so she had to leave him
Growing up I didn't see him, didn't want to meet him
My first girlfriend was raped at 13
My second girlfriend was raped at 14
One time my dad pawned my mom's wedding ring
My moms got cancer when I was 17
I used to vandalize shit when I was 8
Steal kids bikes, sneak out when it was late
School I used to skip skip just to get ripped
Could've been addicted to heroin like my big sis'
I missed my sister before she left Brett
God knows how those drugs affected the M.S
15 was finally when I met my dad
16 I met my brother Big Sag
He did five years, sold dope and sold smack
Southside dropped PCP and smoked crack
Uncle John did a couple years in the pen
Cousin Tom was only 18 when he went
I've taken losses at the hands of friends
They're dead to me, I can never talk to 'em again
19 I made my first stack
20 years old I made 20 stacks
21 years old I made 60 stacks
I sent cats pounds, they never hit me back
I need to grow up, but I don't know nothin'
Can't see my own crew, don't speak to my own cousin
I spent more on hip hop than I ever made
Paid cats for verses and never got the pay
If you've never been poor, down-and-out in your life
You've never had 100 stacks to count in your life
If you've never seen 100 pounds in your life
Then you probably don't relate to what comes out on the mic