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[Verse 1]
The moment I turn twenty-three
I'll grab the gun my father gave to me
On my birthday when I turned seventeen
I'll lay a note right next to me that says
"Split the money that I have evenly between my mom and my dad"
I'll speak so eloquently on what to do with each half
I'll tell Rebecca, "Buy a home down the road from Cypress Grove"
And I know, Mother, you don't want me to go but I must go
And I'll tell Mark to buy a car
Please know you're always in my heart
Even when my conscious self departs, you did your job
And to Chris, I hope you're smilin'
'Cause you kept the boy from dying
For almost a decade, man, fuck what my friends say
One twitch of the finger, fuck around and I'm dead weight
Don't believe what the press say
I did this for me and no one else in the best way
To all of my friends, you know I wish you the best
And when you say my name, say that shit with your chest
And I think I should be clear, I don't want

[Chorus]
I don't wan' be here with people that
That I didn't know last year at fuckin' all
You don't wan' be here when I blow my top off
Girl, I don't want to be here at all, at all, at all, at all, at all
I'll put the metal to skin, and I'll go off on a whim and say
That I don't wan' be here at fuckin' all