Default Status XRaidX

I am here after all this time
Still so much to see
Draw a line, take a step back
Where else would I be?

Just one push and then I'm away
Such a unique individual
Always seeing the pros and cons
But I’m still here stuck in the middle

I know adventures are all passing by
And there's more to this I know
So many ways to go
But when it gets a hold of me
I just can't see another way to go

Well, I’ve been searching for something for so long
But when I feel it in my heart it ain't right
So let the pendulum swing
Don't think I will ever, no I'll never find it
So come on and I'll take you to my default status

I know that it's me but I just cannot enter the circle
Well what can I do, when it's my turn to choose
But when I cannot believe my mind?
Instead of making the time should I forfeit, retry?
Because it's wrecking my heart inside and I just don’t know