The Closest Thing I’ve Found YCK

This is the closest thing I’ve found
To a semblance of happiness I doubt
It’ll last much longer it never does so
Now I’ll go to the dark into the unknown

It’s difficult articulating just how I’m feeling
I fall apart and crumble down every layer is peeling
You’re getting closer to the center you can see my insides
I’m only rotten to the core but I can wish that in time
I go to prove myself and show you all that I’m not the one
They make me out to be a travesty and demon in one
I’m nothing perfect I prefer to keep my thoughts to myself
I’m still assuring I ain’t hurting contradicting my health
Ever since December anything I remember
Is nothing good I miss the days when you put up with my temper
I know I’m hot-headed not sending warmest regards
I wouldn’t think you’d wanna see me since we drifted apart
Now the nights are long and the days falling short
You ain’t been calling up my phone but now I’ve been calling yours
I want a last time I need to hear you speaking just once
I still will love you all despite the things you’ve said and you’ve done

This is the closest thing I’ve found
To a semblance of happiness I doubt
It’ll last much longer it never does so
Now I’ll go to the dark into the unknown