Light Shining Darkly Coil

No
I mean
I said earlier

I mean he was so vital and so alive, the fact that he wasn't there was—was unbelievable

And I was totally devastated...
Picking up the pieces afterwards...
And, ah, it took me about a year to feel safe

I couldn't possibly think of anybody else other than John...
I was so distressed

I think it's a dreadful
Dreadful thing