Six Years Old Gray

[Sound clip from the pilot episode of Freaks & Geeks:]
Lindsay: "Sam. Did Mom and Dad ever tell you I was the only one with Grandma when she died?"
Sam: "No"
Lindsay: 'Yeah. They wen't down to the cafeteria to get some coffee. And all the sudden, Grandma looked so terrified. I didn't know what to do. She grabbed my hand and told me she didn't want to go. She looked so scared, Sam. So I said, well, you know, can you see God or Heaven or a light or anything?"
Sam: "What did she say?"
Lindsay: "No. There's nothing"

If I close my eyes for a breath too long
Can I ever wake up again, or will I sleep for good?
Can you see me in your dreams?
Can you see me in your sleep?

At times I feel so lonely, but I guess you wouldn't know
The person I miss most is you six years ago
And at times I hear you're smiling and I think I understand
Why I thought you threw away everything you had

This time next year, will I have the courage to say
"I'm sorry, are you still proud of me?"
This time next year, will I have the courage to say
"I'm sorry, are you still proud of me?"