A Forever Recovery Capstan

While everyone's sleeping in their bed
I'm wide awake, lost in my head
I'm so fucking tired and out of breath
And it's been like this ever since you left
I was always more careless than careful
Losing grips on things I cared for
My body's tired and these eyes are sore
Forever drifting while you're safe ashore

While everyone's smug with second-best
I'll bandage these wounds inside my chest
Been carrying the weight of the world and just can't do it anymore
It's impossible to be invincible in a world that's so deceitful
But I just keep pretending that never sinking is believable

Well, I've been down and I've been out
But this is something I've never felt
The letters and the promises you've sent
Have only brought me hell

I'm breaking up the cycle of letting you pull me down
Can you feel the ground shake? It caves from your weight
Empty promises can't save you now
The clarity of your voice has since turned to white noise and static
It seems my outline and your scant design weren't meant for this schematic