Holdin Me Back Jordan Ward

First love. Young and naive with his first love
Made me forget where the hurt was
What a beauty that bloomed on the surface
But when you dig that dirt up
Bound to find a hole
What it seem ain't so
How you finna hold me down, if we can’t take hold?
Tryna rush to be a man
Til a man can’t grow
I was 9 years old
You was all I know
You built me up on some empty satisfaction
Shit so good, I can find nothin to match it
Guess it’d be different if this lasted more than moments
But it doesn’t so I’m hurting when I’m lonely
Stuck on my relationship wichu
That I’m not with myself
I’m broken, weak, and too ashamed to get some help
Been a long time comin
Look at all we been through
Now it’s done but I don’t feel too sentimental

Cause me and you live on a slippery slope
Sought peace from the high, now I’m hittin a low
Tryna throw myself past the tip of my toes
And I would fall to my death if I could let you go