​aerosol June Henry

[Verse]
My texts to you aren’t going though
You’re probably somewhere beautiful
I think you’d think about me too
If I was the right beautiful

Should I get stuck spiraling
Over something else?
Would the whirlpools get twice as intense
Or suddenly destroy themselves?
I don’t know shit about the ocean
But I'm learning about bodies
And all the ways they thrash around
And spit you into nothing

I have to keep telling myself
That nobody was trying
To use me up the way I used up
Spray paint in the alley
But I feel like empty aеrosol
Huffed under an overpass
Likе I have no solid form
Live my life as liquid and gas

Don’t know if I’ve been in love
I’ve at least dabbled in it
And I think it makes me fully crazy
Not in the good way you talk about it