​​entry 2 - confused ​oxxie

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Sitting in my room, feeling myself lose
Everything hurts and I feel like I'm consumed
Feeling so confused, conflicting issues
I cannot stand this, I cannot get through
You don't understand what your words really do to me
You can take my hand, hold me close, and tell me you won't leave
Read your text and I started to cry, my tears are on my shirt
Even though it wasn't your intention, that shit really hurt
I don't wanna bring it up 'cause I think it'll make it worse
I don't wanna hurt your feelings even though you hurt mine first
I'll just keep it in my chest and it'll slowly eat at me
Until I figure it's enough and I just shut down mentally
Put yourself in my position, tell me, does it feel alright?
Put yourself in my shoes, I don't think you'll make it through the night
Even when I'm not, I have to promise her that I'm okay
'Cause I don't wanna have her stressing out over the things I say
I can't eat, I can't sleep
My mind is all fogged up and I can't think
Maybe I should open up my feelings just a little more
Maybe I shouldn't be so closed off with her, she's mi amor