Better Myself Merkules (Ft. Rittz & Savannah Dexter)

Chorus:
I can't get ahead of myself (myself)
I should try and better myself (myself)
But I'm drowning in the deep end
And it feels like noone sees it
Someone please give me a reason I should stay
I can't get ahead of myself (myself)
I should try and better myself (myself)
But I'm drowning in the deep end
And it feels like no one sees it
Someone please give me a reason I should stay

Merkules:
Yeah, I got a plan to make a lot of changes
But it's harder to breathe when your heart is racin'
I've been caught up in constant contemplation
That shit's not a phase, it's too complicated
Can't concentrate when the cuts get deeper
If I were you I wouldn't love me either
My problem is I'm too fuckin' eager
I got a taste of revenge and there's nothing sweeter
So I'm numbin' the pain with another substance
Till I lose balance and my blood is rusted
Just another fuck up piss drunk in public
They don't trust me at all like I'm up to somethin'
Like why can't they ever hear me screamin'
The preacher told me I might need Jesus
Trapped in my head till I find some freedom
It feels like I'm some sort of evil genius
Please don't talk to me cause I don't want to be bothered
And I can't fall asleep, I'm busy fighting these monsters
Why's it so hard to breathe, somebody call me a doctor
I think I'm goin' fuckin' bonkers, yeah