Disguise Inertia

Do I feel this all the time?
Is there a way to go without you ever knowing
That I left it all behind
And I don't want to change you mind
Because I’m feeling low and that I don't deserve
All the good things in this life

And I know that no one minds
They don't care what I do, how the world seems to you
But it claws at me inside
You don’t know what's on my mind
I don't need you to feel 'cause what I feel is real
But I can't help asking why

I'm standing on the edge
No one knows that I'm hanging by a thread
My mind is racing, I feel it caving in
I feel it happening again
And after all this time
I forgot that I'm alive

What do I do to pass the time?
I’m just walking around with my head down
Trying to build a new disguise
I’m thinking "why should I even try?"
When еvery choice is the samе
And I'm going insane when