Runaway (From Myself) Citizen Soldier

[Verse 1]
I didn't grow up in an abusive home I am one
I've tried to leave this sour place a thousand times
From the start I've made self-sabotage my anthem
Like being who I am is self-harm in disguise

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause something deep inside me is broken
I'm not allowed to feel a thing
Every loving word means nothing
I'm obsessed with suffering
Lately thinking feels like cutting
Every thought's a razor blade
(If only I had someone else to blame)

[Chorus]
Wish I could runaway from myself, from myself
But there is no escape
When you're the prison cell
Wish I could runaway from myself, from myself
I plead for better days
But get thrown back in hell (Hell, hell, hell...)

[Post-Chorus]
Wish I could runaway from myself
Wish I could runaway from myself