More Than Feel Helvetia

In this dim, I pick myself back up
Repetition of the
Somethin I don't understand
That's helpin me stay up
And then I face-plant
I look back at that strange
Mind is in a bend
Looks like I'm throwin myself around
Try not to react to
[simples?] beyond repair
I can't remember the first time
That I gave up before
It's not what it seems
I'm not reveling in it
It's more than i can feel
I'm not settling
For this