TissueBox Mickey Shiloh

[I pray to God... I really pray to God
That I get over this.. whatever this is..
Whatever this thing keeping me down is..
I wanna live again..]

I've been up
I've been down and they say
"Michaela, the chemicals are different in your brain"
I've been held down
I've been strapped down in restraints
I've been locked in hospitals with folks that are really insane
I didn't ever hurt nobody
Maybe sometimes myself
And I didn't ever tell nobody
How sad I felt
Cause it's just hard to explain...
No one understands me
Cause they can't see my pain
[I guess I don't show any emotion]
It's all inside of me...
[I feel it... I'm so disappointed in myself]
And I don't wanna start crying
Cause my friend is on the couch
I'm sorry... just tryna put these records out

I've just been in my room since I was kid
Cutting songs while my best friend cut her wrists
And she didn't ever hurt nobody
Most times just herself
And she didn't have nobody else that she could tell
So I just kept it all in
But I told my mom my secrets...
And when I'm calling
She always answers quick
Cause she knows at any minute I could be manic
[I DON'T CARE WHAT THE FUCK....]
She knows at any minute I could panic
[I feel like I'm gonna faint...]
Cause I'm a hypochondriac with damage
[I've given myself some sort of disease or something...]
That shit be so hard to fuckin' manage
[Just my head isn't clear at all...]