Blacklodge Cloudy Skies

I couldn’t believe it
You came into my life, left me there, speechless
I'm messed with, breathless, effect-less
I knew that this was the real thing
You connected to the real to me
I had to take it and grab it
I couldn’t betray it
I had it decided:
You were realer than truth
But I'm fucked
Man, I'm a savage
I couldn’t understand it
I left you here, un-planned it
I couldn’t tell
What it would mean if I was to become this scandalous
Here I am
I left ya, broken
Ignored ya, left ya there so lonesome
Left without a place
And I'm stuck in my mind without a space
With my life’s selfish ways
Why can’t I get a taste?
What it means to be real
What it means to be whole
All the things you gave me
All it felt unobtainable
But I am here and
I can’t pretend
I knew that this would lead to the end
But I still just chased the moment
I chased the lie
Sincerely doing whatever felt right
In the time, I just had to be alive
Cuz you got inside “us”
I faded cuz your griminess
I may say it cuz we got this
Cuz you knew how crafty I was
And I fronted with you
Cuz you see yourself with me in your dreams
But I fuck it up— I had to have the wealth
And I had— to have the dreams
And I had— I had what seems to be the way
And I can’t undo this
I said that you were to be the one
But I can’t understand what it means to be alone
And I'm stuck and now I can’t find where I'm suppose to go
Suppose to go (Where the fuck I’m suppose to go)