Looking Back Kieran the Light

[Verse 1]
I ain't been gettin' no rest
Because I been keepin' all this on my chest
All of these rappers that say they're the best
Done sold out, so I'm not that impressed
I could admit that I'm already blessed
Even when I'm so deep in distress
I could admit that I'm not at my best
When I battle the desires of flesh, yes
I feel like I settled for temporary
Just 'cause I needed fastin', don't ever last
I feel like I'm still so affected
By all of these things in my past, it's makin' me crash
I wipe it away like a doormat
Not sellin' my soul for more cash
As a kid, I used to ignore class
To deliver these bars like Doordash
I had bent on a purpose, yeah
Even when I was stuck on them females
I was blinded, so I couldn't see well
Now I'm gettin' forward like emails
I don't do it for fame!
But I ain't gon' lie, could use it for all of these messages God has been usin' me for
That's the only reason that I'm doin' it for
Hold up, wait, I gotta switch it up
The old me, I had to give it up
I'm on a new wave, I'm like giddy-up
When I ride the beats soon as it come on, I'm like "Time to eat"
I'm in wolves' clothing, but know I am the sheep
Whole rap game is now obsolete, I got God in me!