Resolutions Complete

[Verse]
Mum said:
Never speak to strangers, it's important not to welcome them
But here I am fucking talking to myself again
Dealt resentment, I can feel my health descendin'
Ever since I've felt dependent I've been cornered in a helpless den
I tell my friends I'ma try my hardest, I'm optimistic
But really that's just a lie, to start with, I'm [?] this shit
I've got to fix it, find the answer and not resist it
Otherwise, I'll cark it inside a casket like what's predicted
I'm the definition of what a waste
Could drop a tape, get recognition then rock a stage
Or rot away 'cause I met addiction and got replaced
Success or failure, repetition is what it takes
There's nothing but shame inside of my core
The water inside my eye is the rain supplied by the storm
I'll pour my life on the mic till I'm taken right to the morgue
'Cause I'm more than likely to die if there ain't a rhyme to record though
Every now and then I partly have some doubt for rap
They don't ask me how I am, they ask me "Where the album at?"
Tired of the politics, the nastiness and how we act
It's weird when you start to see a party as a power nap, huh?
Some say that I should focus on a better dream
The scene will never see me as the dopest that they've ever seen
Upcoming rappers in Messenger tryna send a link
While I'm at Centrelink 'cause I'm broker than I've ever been
Parked in a car that can hardly start
While asking one of my mates to go halves in a dart he sparked
I should prob'ly go and work on some bars but I can't be arsed
I'd rather mask my emotions and laugh as the carton lasts, man
My mother's disappointed and my nana's scared
Every time I fuck my life up it's like I just damage theirs
I'm that impaired and I'm nothing but an addict
Prob'ly gonna find my fucking body hanging near a stack of chairs
I see my doctor more than I see my missus
I'm not surprised that she locks the door when I seem suspicious
When I reek of piss and I treat her like a poxy whore
Like all I want her for is to mop the floor and to clean the dishes
A piece of shit and I'm a stupid coward
I devour booze like I think it's giving me superpowers
I bruise my mouth as I chew for hours, consuming powders
Then the terror came like the aeroplane that went through the Towers
Years passed but the tonic remains
I know my funeral's something that my mother's prob'ly gonna arrange
I look in the mirror, I wanna explain
But my reflection rolls its eyes as I promise to change, so what's the point