The Kitchen Briston Maroney

[Verse 1]
And somewhere between the kitchen and the casket
Is where I realized that I was slippin' faster and faster
On my thoughts over breakfast, check myself off my checklist
I found believin' in heaven's receivin' a death wish

[Pre-Chorus]
With all these questions I'm asking
Start with the simple ones
Closed eyes, see right
Tell me why

[Chorus]
Why is my mother scared that I don't miss her?
And why ain't I doin' more to prove her wrong?

[Verse 2]
And I was somewhere between the dark and the fluorescent
I'd spent all of the dimes that I'd saved up for the weekend
But now it's Friday and I'm alone
Where's my cellphone, where's my soul?
Am I choked by the truth or this new diamond necklace?

[Chorus]
Why is my mother scared that I don't miss her?
And why ain't I doin' more to prove her wrong?
Why do I try so hard to be remembered?
When I could stay right here and wait until I'm gone